Month #45

So I am almost 4 years in and I can safely now say that I am healed from that wicked and horrendous illness called TSW. Wow, what a freaking journey. I can’t hardley begin to describe the pain, heartache, agony, life lessons that I have learned over the past 4 years. I so so so wish I never experienced TSW, back to the good ol days when I had no clue what that was. TSW robbed me from so much. first of all is took away almost 4 years of my life because living with TSW isn’t really living t all, it’s just getting through each agonizing day and trying not to give up from all the pain and suffering. My life now looks completely different then t did before I started TSW, but I am so happy to say that I am now living my life. I am independent again, I am so close to finally being divorced (stupid paperwork) and free from that horrible time in my life. I wish with my whole heart that I could erase the time of my life that I met my ex husband until the day my skin turned around for the better. But I would keep my daughter as she is my everything! Now that I have normal skin I can play with her and love her and just be a normal mom to her. I am sad that the first year with her was so hard and a lot o it was a blur or just pain and no sleep but now we make up for lost time! She makes everything worth it and I am so happy and lucky to be her mother.

I am now working which is something I never fathomed as a possibility when I was in the thick of TSW. I am now a single mother and working! I am busy busy busy and the last thing I think about is my skin and it doesn’t hold me back anymore, finally!

I would like to say to anyone who is going through TSW that you can get through this! If you are just discovering that you have to go through TSW and you are so daunted by all the stories you hear and all the horror pictures you have seen and the pain you have already experienced. Yes, it is going to be a long road and I know that you feel like it is impossible and that you are scared and sad and helpless but you can do it! It was the hardest time of my life but I am so glad that I chose to go through it when I did and not prolong the inevitable. It took away part of my life but it gave me a whole new appreciation for the life I have now. You will have moments where you want to give up or where you just cant go on anymore but you can and the support that is out there in the groups of people going through it with you is amazing and is what really got me through each and every day.

I am now and finally happy and healthy and skin issues are a distant memory.

Fuck you TSW

me

 

 

 

 

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